Been a while

Well it sure as hell has been a while since my last blog. I've been kinda chilling out, trying to get my bearings with all of the changes occurring in my life right now. Talk about being jaded...

There really aren't any book updates right now. I will have some important dates to list over the weekend, but right now I'm in a ranting type of mood. Lovely isn't it? You'd think I'd be doing something more productive with my time, but that just hasn't been my style lately. I think, sadly, that I've lost my groove...

Sounds silly, doesn't it? Recently, I've come to the realization that there are a lot of things in my life that are changing and I'm not changing with them. I should be on top of the hustle and bustle, but I mostly feel like I'm trailing behind them, just keeping up. It's incredibly stressful and annoying. Now, I'm not the type to normally whine about life in general, but everyone's entitled to it every now and again. At least that's how I see it. 

I constantly feel like I'm waiting for something amazing to happen that will snap me out of my current state of wandering. What the hell am I waiting for? I haven't a clue. I guess, really, I'm waiting for something not to happen. See, the way things have always gone for me have been good for a while until life smacks me in the face with something brand new and equally laced with a fine coating of suck. Sad, yet true. So instead of getting uber excited about any of the potential prospects for my future, I'm weary. I'm also lacking the confidence to make the things happen that I can control. I know, I know, I'm a loser, but I'm also human.

So, where does that leave me? In a perpetual state of wait and see. I will wait and see how some things turn out and continue to do what I've been doing. I'll wait and see if the current goals will be carried out as planned, or if the suck will rear it's ugly head again. I'll wait and see if I can bring myself up to the correct level of excitement and anticipation in the wake of things to come. I'll simply just have to wait and see...

That being said, I'll "see" you guys around soon and thanks for "listening". The few of you who follow me won't be impressed with this blog, but at least I'm being honest! Ta-ta for now!

~Lisa
xoxoxoxo

One Thing After Another *sigh*

Well, those of you who keep up with my Facebook Page, I'm just getting over being incredibly sick. I have a bacterial infection that put my on my arse for almost two weeks. I didn't really feel right, I knew I was getting sick, I just didn't expect it to be as bad as it was. Everything, and I do mean EVERYTHING, was put on hold for that time. I didn't attend any classes, go to work, write anything or even really stay awake much of that time. I probably slept for six of the last ten days, but don't really feel rested. I needed a break from life, but WHOA! I didn't want to feel like death for two weeks!

So, anyway, that's been why I've been virtually a ghost. I've wanted to get online and chat with folks, not to mention do some work, but I could barely pick my head up. All in all, I'm feeling a bit better. The next few days will be the key. 

That being said, I'm still shooting for an October release for Binding, but keep in mind with all the setbacks lately, this date is tentative. I hate throwing days out there and then not sticking to them, but life gets in the way sometimes and there really isn't anything else you can do. 

Well, I hope I'll be able to check in much sooner. Thanks for stopping by and I hope you all are well and happy!

~Lisa <3

Who I Am

My mind tends to wander. I guess this is one reason why writing comes naturally to me. When I'm at work (yes, I have a regular job!), I think about writing. When I'm writing, I think about school. When I think about school, I think about my kids or my family. And the cycle continues. I'm always thinking of things I could be doing instead of what I'm supposed to be doing and I've had such a hard time curbing my mental restlessness.

Perhaps I have this undeniable urge for life to change? Or maybe I'm anxious to see if this path is one worth continuing? It's hard to say this early in the game, but I'm not one to give up easily. My entire life, I've been a fighter. I fight for the ones I love. I fight for my ideals and beliefs. I fight for my children. Bottom line....I've got a strength deep inside that I didn't know I had and it keeps me going day after day.

Often, I blog about what's happening with my books and bits and pieces of real life. I'm not really that superficial. I'm a real person, with real problems and challenges, trying to find a really good way to live out this dream. I refuse to be stuck doing something I hate forever and I won't be told I have to write a certain way to fit in with today's pop-literature. I am my own person; I have my own voice.

Basically, this is my way of saying that I may type with a lot of exclamation points and post a ton of stuff about how my writing is going, but I'm just trying to figure out the best way to do the one thing I've always loved to do. I'm not just a writer, it's engrained in my DNA to tell stories and create mysterious worlds and characters everyone can fall in love with. I don't write just write to make a living, I write because it's my passion!